Monday, November 25, 2013

As the NKOTB say: Hangin' Tough

Today was sort of rough. Had a lot of thoughts running through my mind. Emotionally weak was another part of my day. I cried a few times. Just felt the need to. Hate feeling this way. Struggled with my little girl today. She was a Tasmanian devil today. Worked my last nerve until just a half hour ago. I hope she stays in bed the rest of the night. Days like today suck. They are few and far between each other, but when they come, they come full force.

Quotes of the Day:

“ Happiness is beneficial for the body, but it is grief/sorrow that develops the powers of the mind” - Marcel Proust

“ Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength” - Arnold Schwarzenegger

Video of the Day:

Above the Timberline: Five for Fighting

Friday, November 22, 2013

Letter to Editor

I wrote a letter to Editor for the Opinion page to the Herald Journal. It was published today.

Here is the letter.

To the editor,

Over the past few weeks I have noticed that people are constantly trying to push their beliefs on others, be it complaints about the alcohol amendment in Hyde Park, or complaining about Oasis Books selling books that are not all LDS or match up with the supposed standards or teachings of the LDS Church.

The main thing that is irritating with all of this is that we are allowing the wants of the few to out weigh the needs of the many.
I have no problem with alcohol being sold at the Hyde Park Maverik. Most of the things being said were way off base about what it would mean to the city and how it would affect everyone in a negative way. They are not looking at the big picture in ways of seeing that the amount of taxes taken in by Hyde Park from just these sales alone will help the city in being able to afford to beautify the city and to be able to pay for things without asking for a take hike or extra fees. Just because you don’t drink or agree with it, does not make it right to force how you are on someone else. I couldn’t care less either way. I don’t drink, but I am not going to condemn someone who does.
And with Oasis Books selling literature not in tune with the LDS Church, big deal. I for one am glad that they have an open mind and sell what they deem acceptable in their eyes and for what others have asked for. They would not sell it, if it was not wanted. It’s great knowing that people want to know and learn about other religions and other ways to be spiritual outside of the what is the norm here in Cache Valley, Utah.
To believe in something because someone tells you to is the height of stupidity. We are given senses to receive our information from within. With our own eyes we see, and with our own skin we feel. Without our own intelligence, it is intended that we understand without knowing or feeling what we want to understand. Each person must put together their own life and knowledge puzzle for him or herself and not let outside influences dictate what and why they believe the way they do.
Jon Marshall
Hyde Park

I have lots of problems with people trying to dictate and force beliefs on others. I could care less who drinks and who reads literature that is not of the normal religious fare around here. It is their life, not ours to decide what they should do.

Quote of the Day:

" The only freedom which deserves the name, is that of pursuing our own good in our own way, so long as we do not attempt to deprive others of theirs, or impede their efforts to obtain it."
- John Stuart Mill-

Video of the Day:

Stand Up: Five for Fighting


Thursday, November 21, 2013

More Testing

Tonight I have to go in for a Sleep Apnea test. I have to do this since a new law went into effect that any body that drives professionally and is over a certain BMI ( Body Mass Index ) must have this test since people with Sleep Apnea are more than 70% more likely to be involved in an accident. The good thing is I do not have any of the warning signs and the 4 page form full of questions that narrow it down further I answered with NO or Never, so that is good as well.  I have had 3 physicals in the past year for various jobs and have a clean bill of health besides my weight. All of the Dr's who have seen my test results laugh and just can't believe that I do not have anything wrong besides a little above normal blood pressure.  I am a big guy. But I have also kept up my strength. I am strong, just a chunky, or as I say HEALTHY :)  I am pretty sure I do not have Sleep Apnea, but if I do, than its a hurdle I will over-come.

Quotes of the Day:

" Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that creates sorrow. Let reality be reality.  Let things flow naturally forward in what ever they like " -Lao Tzu-

" Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self respect leads to self discipline.  When you have both firmly under your belt, that's real power " - Clint Eastwood -

Video of the Day:

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Quotes and Videos

Today I have been reflecting on lots of things. Music and reading inspirational quotes help me focus on who, what, where, why and my wants and needs.  I love having other avenues of spirituality besides the main big one that I grew up with. 


"The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity." - Albert Einstein -

" To believe in God or in a guiding force because someone tells you to is the height of stupidity. We are given senses to receive our information from within. With our own eyes we see, and with our own skin we feel. With out intelligence, its is intended that we understand. But each person must puzzle it out for himself or herself ." - Sophy Burnham -

" Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life. "
- Joan Lunden -


What If: Five for Fighting

I love this video. Five for Fighting is one of my favorite bands. Great singer and always great words in his music.

Berzerk: Eminem

 Love Slim Shady ( EMINEM ).  His new album is one of the best rap / any type of music ever.  He is the best rapper. Plus how can you hate the great remix of old classic songs into this song. Plus the homage to Beastie Boys.


Monday, November 18, 2013

What i see while driving..............

Driving the city bus around Logan I get to see and experience lots of things on a daily basis. One thing that is always eye opening to me is what kids wear now a days. Since when is it hip or in style to wear skin tight clothes, ( all skinny jeans are ugly on both sexes) Just so you know, and clothes that are not the right fit for their bodies.  I am a big guy and I make sure I am not showing all of my excess padding to the world. That is why I ordered bigger shirts, so when I had to bend down, there was not a full moon over Mihami showing to the world.

And what is up with the see through spanx or however you spell that. I see many girls wearing these with nothing on underneath. And some of them leave literally nothing to the imagination. And sometimes the sunlight makes it way worse. I mean McKinley will have to shoot me to ever allow her to wear those type of clothes.

I hate how the kids nowadays think they have to be like their idols and show their bodies when they do not have to and would be much more beautiful covered up.

Some other things from the bus:

1. Crazy stories I get to hear daily.
2. People who don't know how to use a cross walk.
3. People / Drivers who think my bus can stop on a dime. I mean airbrakes are great, but I am going to protect myself and the passengers before I worry about hitting your car if it comes down to it.
4. The smelliest people sit in the back of the bus right by the air intake so all the smells come right up to me since its a circulating fan.
5. People who think we are taxis and even though they are not by a stop expect us to stop.

The fun life of a bus driver.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

What to Talk About Today

I am not sure if there is anything really that is worthwhile to talk about. I am not sure what I want this blog to be anymore.  I don't want to start a blog of constant hate or bad feelings towards the LDS Church. I don't want it to be such a negative area of vents and frustrations. I am still working my way through this big pile of shit that I have been in for a while.  I don't know if I have even had any good views or points in my past blog posts.

 All I do know is that this helps me. Its helps me clear my mind, its gives me a pathway to where I want to go and where I have been.  I am planning on starting fresh and delving into subjects that interest me. Some to you may be far-fetched ideas. Some you will agree with. Some you won't. Some might make you think I am crazy for thinking that. Some might make you think, I am not the only one who thinks or believes that way.

I love being creative. I have always enjoyed art, photography, writing and telling stories. The only things my hands are good for are writing/typing, drawing and holding the camera still. I have another blog with my Photography and Art work: PinkMoosePhotography .

This Blog is going to be my writings. I know I am not going to be the next Jack London or C.S. Lewis, but I love to create stories in my head and make them up at night when I tell my little girl bed time stories.  

There will be times that I write stories, rant about things in the news, my life, and other times I will just add links or quotes for the day.  I will try to do something everyday. My goal is to write something everyday on here. We will see how that goes.

Comments are always welcomed.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Ummm... Thanks

It is now November. Its the month of giving Thanks and the start to the fun holiday season.

Normally when people say they are “Thankful” they talk about their spiritual side of things and how thankful they are for church or god and what blessings he has bestowed and granted on them.

I don’t need that. Its hard for me to even hear any mention of God or any sort of religious talk or under-tones. I have a real hard time believing in a being that I in my life has had no interaction with on nothing more than just a superficial level. To me things that happened after i prayed were just an everyday coincidence, they were not answers. If you really wish it / have faith in what you need, your mind will create the reaction you are hoping for.

As most of you know and read on my past posts ( now erased, my mistake ), i have had a life long struggle with being a member of the LDS Church. I tried to fit in, to follow the herd and to be part of something that I have questioned since i was younger. Do i feel bad or have any concerns about when i die about not being able to see my loved ones again? NO. I will see them again. And i do believe that. 

To me just taking a step back to research and really looking at how i was living and who i was trying to be helped a lot. Seeing some of the things the Church was involved in made it even easier.

So this years up-coming holidays are actually more exciting for me. I am relaxed. I am happy. I am seeing this holiday in all aspects other than Jesus’s birthday. I love this time of year, i get to see people i love and care about.

I can’t wait to watch football, home-made rolls, the pies, the turkey, stuffing, Liz’s Sweet Potato/Yam casa-role, egg nog, playing with McKinley in the snow, Hardware Ranch trip, McKinley visit to Santa, christmas concerts, holiday parties.

I am thankful for everyone of you who are still friends and family after all of these years.

Quote(s) of the Day:

“I don’t object to the concept of a deity, but I’m baffled by the notion of one that takes attendance and asks for 10% of your income”- Anonymous

“Everyone should be allowed to worship according to his own inclinations”- Flavius Josephus

Video of the Day:

ROAR : Katy Perry