Thursday, January 30, 2014

Popping up at random times

A few weeks ago Liz and I were talking and I was telling her about a website I was constantly on and commenting on. It is called . It helped me realize that it was ok in feeling how I was about the Church and my years of being a half assed member and that I could walk away from it and not care. So I told Liz that I would get off the website because to me it was making me angry, it was making me feel taken advantage of, and really despising the Church and its bold faced lies to the members and of its past. So I had her change my password and I told her I would no longer long on to that site.  And I have not.

I do not need to go and look for validation of my feelings about the Church. They find me. Like tonight. I was just browsing the online version of Newsweek and this article is on the site.

Before I got off PostMormon I was holding lots of feelings and ill-will towards the Church. I hated knowing that the history that is taught is not what really happened. I hated seeing the Church start to go back on its past and pretty much throw Prophets and Apostles under the bus. To me, the Church is doing what they always have done since the beginning with Joseph Smith which is find something that works, and use it as long as you can and then once it starts to fall apart at the seems, flush it, change it and say it was never doctrine or ever taught or it has been interpreted wrong.

I have lost friends because of my change of heart and stance on the Church. Does it hurt? Yes. Do I understand? Yes.  But I thought my friends would not let one thing get in the way of our lifelong friendship. But to each their own. I am letting them go from this point on.

I hope that if you have Doubts or questions about the Church, you go out and research for yourself, look at both sides. I did.

 Do not do as President Uchtdorf said in his Conference talk about "Doubting your Doubts". They don't want you to break away from the herd and find out what really is out there.

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Imagine Dragons: Radioactive

Friday, January 10, 2014


This year is going to be year full of Progress.

Progress is defined as:  advancement in general, growth or development; continuous improvement:
the development of an individual or society in a direction considered more beneficial than and superior to the previous level.
I am looking ahead to what this years has in store for in terms of progress, not only for me, but for Liz, McKinley and I.  We are in the steps of moving and starting anew in a new place. Its a great step toward to what we want, need and desire.
This move is going to help me progress in many ways. I am going to be able to develop my skills as a worker and also grow as a husband, father, lover and friend.  I am starting to wake up happy and energized on a daily basis. After a year of being down and not sure where life was leading me I finally have a good course and road to follow.  This year is going to be a great stepping stone for us.
Quote of the Day:
We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive.


"We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road"
"Without a struggle, there can be no progress" -Frederick Douglas
Video of the Day:
Fighter: Gym Class Heroes with Ryan Tedder ( One Republic )

Monday, January 6, 2014

Honestly, who does it hurt??????

The past few weeks Liz and I have had some discussions about Gay Marriage and Utah allowing it and then the Supreme Court stepped in and has disallowed it for the time being. In all honesty. WHO CARES if Men marry Men, or Women marry Women. What is so wrong with that?? Why can't two people in love show that by getting married.

 The only ones against it are ones who believe in a higher power who picks favorites and thinks that their religion is the right one.

Allowing this is not going to hurt me. Its not go to affect my day to day life.  Its not going to affect me being married to Liz and being a father to McKinley.

The God I believe in does not play favorites. It is not anywhere in the 10 commandments.

The 10 Commandments Never says anything about GAY being wrong. See for yourself:

The Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:2-17 NKJV)
1“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other gods before Me.
2“You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My Commandments.
3“You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain.
4“Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your male servant, nor your female servant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.
5“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you.
6“You shall not murder.
7“You shall not commit adultery.
8“You shall not steal.
9“You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
10“You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor's.”

Nope Nothing said about being Gay is wrong.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

A Fresh Year Begins

This is the year. Its the year to start fresh. Last year was full of ups and downs. I was pretty much separated for 9 months. Living in a extended stay hotel was horrible. I hated it. I did try to put on a happy face and try to over-come my situation, but what I found is that I needed my wife and daughter back.  I missed them so much. It is so great that they are back.

This year I have many resolutions. I am not going to list all of them, since I have decided that the only ones who need to know most of them are Myself and Liz.

I am going to change. I am going to be better. I am going to start living a life that I need and want.

I am going to try to blog daily. I need to. It helps me focus. It helps me vent about my frustrations.

I hope your new year goes as well as you need and want it to.